Goddess bless. Those short cycles seem like they’d be hell on wheels, but it’s SUCH a relief when the blood comes. Because those days right before (at least for me) are serious. Like the sky-is-falling serious.
I hope you make it through these times. Your feelings about freedom and regret aren’t too far from my own, although I chose the path of kids albeit a bit late. At least you have the option of sleeping when you can.
The only thing that’s worked for me to level out is gentle as I can yoga. Usually late at night. Usually when I’m crying.
Blessed be lady!
#onelove