I wrote a few pieces last year that might resonate with you based on what you write about -

https://kaiamaeve.medium.com/why-women-want-more-a015f5c0ddea

https://kaiamaeve.medium.com/why-does-it-have-to-be-about-sex-53ee1424cfdf

https://kaiamaeve.medium.com/why-juicy-matters-49e092b53ff4

The change is here. Thank the fucking goddess!